worked sucked today.

monday
september 8, 2008
8:58pm
I am sitting at the kitchen table at my place and i'm creating this blog journal entry.
no one else is home because no one else lives here.
after work when i unlocked the door i realized the dead bolt was unlocked and i always lock the dead bolt so i knew someone had stopped by.
i think it was either mom or mike and i'm guessing it was mike, especially since i think he doesn't have work to keep him occupied, that stopped by here to grab the rest of the beer so he could take it back to the house to hide and drink when no one else was around.
my brother isn't suppose to come back around here anymore.
what if i wanted to drink the beer that mike had left behind?
that would be totally out of character for me but what if wanted to keep it around so i could have a beer every now and then?
or what if i wanted to give the beer to my friend chris?
i guess if it was dad or mom that came and took the beer or even if it was mike that came and took the beer they were still doing something that i feel that they didn't have a right to do...they came here without my permission and just went through my fridge and took what they wanted.
i'm not really pissed that they did that, i'm just trying to make a point.
anyways, its been kind of rainy all day, although it has not rained all day.
i think this morning it was kind of gloomy, it looked like maybe it was going to rain.
but i don't think it really started raining until sometime between maybe three and four o'clock.
today was a full day at work but it didn't feel really busy in a stressful sort of way.
tomorrow is another full schedule and its going to be just me and teresa.
the neighbors next door for the past couple of minutes have making a lot of noise...
it sounds like some of them are running around the apartment after each other.
over the weekend i found some spots and bumps on my neck that kind of made me worry.
the spots are on the left shoulder neck area.
the two or three obvious spots look like mosquito bites but i don't remember being bit by a mosquito.
those spots you can see with your eyes without really trying to look hard if you happen to catch me with my shirt off...
those one look like mosquito bites and from time to time i think they itch.
the ones that look like mosquito bites aren't the ones that really worry me because i'm pretty sure that they are mosquito bites...
but i'm still not one hundred percent sure that they're mosquito bites.
now it sounds like their moving furniture around.
the three or four bumps that worry me more are further up my neck whereas the ones that look like mosquito bites are more so on my shoulder.
there is one that feels like a pimple that is kind of behind my left ear and then there are two or three bumps that feel to be more so under the surface of the skin then on the surface like a pimple or a mosquito bite.
the area with the two or three bumps that i just described to you has been kind of sore since the weekend and the soreness has also expanded to my neck area below the joint where upper and lower jaw connect.
the soreness is not connected with my bones like if you twisted your knee...its more like a muscle soreness only i think it has to do with my lymph nodes.
in other words, i'm concerned that i either have some sort of infection or i have some sort of cancer.
the disturbing thing is i'm pretty sure that this has happened before and in the past i just kind of ignored it or just waited until it went away.
if these bumps don't go away by friday then i'm going to go to my doctor's office on saturday for urgent care hours.
i think thats it for tonight.